For some reason, most solid meals lately have made me pretty ill to the point of not wanting to consume anything but milk and water (but not together, ick).
It’s probably the same ol’ combination of factors—eat too much, too fast. It’s still pretty depressing to lose a meal and the calories and nutrients along with it. I’m still pretty good on my calories as of late, despite it. I’m supplementing my diet with lots of protein-fortified skim milk, and I’m quite fond of it, so that helps.
I’m not planning on “gorging” myself (whatever that means anymore) during the holidays, so I’m hoping my weight loss will stay steady. I’m thinking that since I’m moving and having to deal with family during this time, I’ll most likely feel pretty stressed, and that may be the biggest factor in holding me back from losing what I’d like. I’m also taking a short hiatus from my personal trainer, so I won’t be getting the rigorous workouts that I have been the past several weeks. I do hope that while we move, I’ll be getting a lot more physical activity that will help me burn what I want to until I can start a regular exercise regimen again.
I have been having some pretty STRONG cravings for no-no foods lately, and my hunger is creeping back. It isn’t strong, but I can feel when I haven’t consumed anything for a while and I do WANT to eat something. Our house has been in a sort of disarray while we’re packing for the move, and I haven’t really bothered with much grocery shopping for things I SHOULD have around for good, safe meals (cottage cheese, greek yogurt, etc). Next week, once we’re settled in, I plan to make a grocery run for all the things I should have in my pantry and fridge for those times I need something wholesome and good for me that fall along the WLS “diet plan”.
And oh yeah, it’s a freakin’ diet. When you’re told NEVER (exclamation point) to eat bread or crackers or pasta, you are on a diet, my friend. People say “I had WLS to never diet again!”, they’re dead wrong. You are RESTRICTED, foods are FORBIDDEN, and no matter how far out I see people, it’s still the same. Now, I realize the big catch is that the farther out you are, the more you’re able to eat, and so the super-dieting part of what I’m going through now will definitely have more wiggle room, but it’s still a life-long diet, and I dare anyone to tell me differently.
In other news, I am positively DREADING the holiday, and I’m not looking forward to it at all. I’m really looking forward to moving, settling in our new house, seeing friends, and hopefully sneaking in some resting time before I have to come back to work. Stress!
*Edit: This isn’t to say I am not grateful for family, I’m just anxiety-ridden and easily stressed.